I'm looking for something I'm unable to find

I didn't like innocents
I don't want to see anything new
Do you want my black and white clothes
I begging to leave, I dress
I kneeling to let, me dress
Me with your paints, paints
My sad eyes, evil people
Mouths full of so many loratas
Catch me at night
More and faster to escape

More and faster to say goodbye
You told me it's not good for me
Cause I'm always chasing along with you
And I swear that even you dropping me down the rock feeling hate
But I liked it

Where did my ghost go
Where is he? Be?
I can never find you with me
'Cause it's always gone, gone
My ghost
Where are you, you
What happened to that soul that used to scare?
Scare

The smokes are leaving their trail on my floor
The memories are haunting me with your screams
Even though I swear I hate it more I love it
Even in the middle of nowhere, nothing
It can be nothing, nothing
My head was never the same, same
I know there is always a ritual to do, to do
And I swear that even you dropping me down the rock feeling hate
But I liked it

Where did my ghost go
Where is he? Be?
I can never find you with me
'Cause it's always gone, gone
My ghost
Where are you, you
What happened to that soul that used to scare?
Scare

I begging you to come back
Back, Back, Back
And leave a crack, crack
Same time no, no, no
Same time no, no, no
The click could be everything to apply to living souls
And not dead
So
I better leave and go, go away by the place that came to me, me

I know there is always a ritual to do, to do
And I swear that even you dropping me down the rock feeling hate
But I liked it

Where did my ghost go
Where is he? Be?
I can never find you with me
'Cause it's always gone, gone
My ghost
Where are you, you
What happened to that soul that used to scare?
Scare